I got these photos taken because I had this crazy idea I wanted to do some acting. I know everyone has had this crazy ifea. The problem is - it's been 8 months, and I've never showed these photos to anyone. It's because I look at them and I critisise myself. Sleep hadn't been my friend that week, and I can feel my exhaustion when looking at them. Perhaps, It's just difficult to look at pictures of ourselves, and maybe the more we do it the more we succumb to the desire to reinvent how we look.
Part of it is that growing up I had terrible acne, and consciously avoided all mirrors because I couldn't stand looking at my skin. Not knowing was the better option. Then, in highschool, I studied art and was forced to do two self portaits a week (one painting and one drawing). I would turn the lights down so low so I could avoid looking, and cake my skin with foundation. This ultimately led to my skin becoming even worse. It's a cycle.
Anyway, I'm not sure if I will get more photos taken and feel the same way or if I should just bloody go for it. Life is too short after all... #acting #portraitphotography #portraitshots #headshots