Breastfeeding holds me back. I don’t spend long periods of time away from my baby, I don’t book all the clients that I could, I don’t eat or drink all the things that I want.
Every few hours all the demands of my day are forced to pause. But I don’t feel lazy as I sit in my cozy chair. I don’t feel as though I’m procrastinating as I snuggle in with my tiny human. Whether or not my business is succeeding does not matter to me as my baby makes that first successful latch.
Yes, breastfeeding holds me back. It holds me back from unimportant tasks, from overwhelming myself with work, and from unhealthy choices. Breastfeeding holds me back from overlooking how precious and fleeting this time with my baby is.
Yes every few hours my day is interrupted. Every few hours the world just disappears. It’s just me and my baby and nothing else. No distractions, just us in a warm embrace. It is in these moments that I am so incredibly thankful that breastfeeding holds me back.