Just think, waking up with obnoxious feeling, everyday. What if you don’t feel like waking up in the morning (because you don’t want to face that fear, pain and all those unanswered questions)?
It’s so scary to even think about those continuous series of days and didn’t even realize when those days started turning into months. I was 24, when I diagnosed with Major Depression. I just lost my interest in each and everything. It started getting worse when i was facing the fears of getting contaminated, being so obsessed with orders and symmetry and trypophobia. My thoughts were not in my control and I was feeling groggy and the thoughts of self killing occupied my mind!
Started doing meditation, gone for outings and what more, but nothing helped. Each and every moment was so painful. Everyday crying like hell, for nothing. I felt like my life is over. There was something that was killing something from inside and then I faced that, I miss “Myself”. I needed the energy that I lost during the phase.
Never knew from where I got the courage to fight back from this. There is something inside me, that is still fighting and I am fighting too from it. It’s a life long commitment that i made it to myself that I will stay strong for the sake of my family!
At last, I learnt few things:
1. Self- Love
2. No one can help you from this, but it’s YOU, who can bring the change within yourselves. People will be there to support you, but still it’s only YOU, who can fight back from this!!
3. No matter what, if you stay strong, you will survive!
Yes, I am a Depression Survivor and not ashamed to share!🌸