Sometimes I feel like one of these super hot #plussizefashion #plussize #BBW Instagram models built just like me living their best lives. Most of the time I am the girl who told her very lovely and loving boyfriend the true sob story of teen T and her first little boyfriend, albeit with a tinge of angst because it still hurts. He really wasn't much of a boyfriend. His dad didn't want him dating a black girl and he was just hanging out and making out with me until someone cuter, skinnier and white came along that he could actually date publicly. He said he was looking and waiting for a girl who looked like Christina Aguilera, is what he said verbatim. What really sucked was he was my neighbor, so I saw him enough to be really miserable about it.
Travis looked at and said "well that sucks, but I love you and I'd never do that." And he doesn't. My guy walks proudly with me hand and hand everywhere - even when he just got off work and he's sweaty but he won't even let me kiss him because he's "gross" and he has to take a shower so he can hug me properly.
I love and encourage everyone else and probably cut myself down the most. Stupid big girl jokes, not growing into my nose and how I look better with long hair or even just my clothes and how they look on me. I have a cute red dress and I get compliments whenever I wear it. But if I can see my tummy in it that day, I'll throw that shit on the floor and change immediately.
Each day I'm learning more #selflove and #bodypositivity just for myself. If I feel better, I won't project so much shit onto my relationship. I'm just thankful he listens and loves my big ass. Thank goodness for genetics and squats because I have a small waist and good skin.
Also, if @rebdolls is watching, I love you 😍😚 I can't wait to order some stuff soon so I can feel #flawless .