I have become unraveled.
The first words, the first glance.
It’s been months, it’s felt like an eternity.
Once again I’m pushing my nails into my
wounds, ripping them open and being greeted with the sharp pain I had at last forgotten.
It took months of grieving, months of letting myself feel the pain and trying so hard to let it go once it began to dull.
All it took was being in the same room as you.
And I’ve become a woman unnerved.
The picture I’ve been slowing piecing together for my future is now fading into the dark.
Your memory, your touch, your eyes, your words.
My mind has stopped,
filled to the brim with every mental sensation you’ve ever given me.
Why do you affect me like this even still,
After what feels like a lifetime without your existence.
My brain goes back to the times I have fought so hard to let go of.
So I could move on and allow you to go on without me.
But I’m taken back to every moment I have felt the closest to you, the times I felt the most loved.
You used to whisper to me every time you and I went without each other’s touch, when we were once again reunited “I missed you”
spilled from your mouth and danced in my ears.
Even if it was just a day.
You’d still say it.
And I remember the way you looked at me while those words escaped your lips.
The way you used to love me.
Then I looked into your eyes again after forever.
And my entire body screamed those words back to me.
I missed you.
Suddenly my thoughts are too much for my body to contain.
They have taken the shape of water and flood my eyes, cover my face.
And my heart is grieving.
And I can’t breathe.
And my skin feels heavy.
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