*tell me what you're thinking*
I hate small talk. I hate that anxiety over analyzes, but small talk anxiety brain makes you feel like you're walking around with bugged out eyes. You're pleading that someone will relieve you and let you stop smiling and filling in the void with minuscule tidbits that never feel let out enough. They are tied up in outnumbered bundles choking me. When I look up on Pinterest (yes I did that) I'm told how to be better at conversation, how I am introvert who can overcome, how to break the ice and be a pro. Why can't the other people learn how to stop being small talkers, how to be whatever the opposite of an introvert who hates small talk is (BTW PINTEREST I'm sure there are extroverts who hate small talk and are "bad" at it), and I like ice. I don't want to break anymore ice. I also don't write off everyone who is a small talker because maybe they don't know better and maybe more people are secretly like me. They hate small talk, but what else is there when we live a fast food world, with tltr syndrome, and efficiency/influence is the gold standard over method of slow progress?
P.S. I know we can't jump immediately into deep talk, but I am so tired of bringing up the weather and the like. I don't want to fill awkward silences with questions I don't care about the answers to and respond with one word answers because what else is there. I think we are so programmed into small talk that it's second nature to accommodate it. We need to give ourselves mental smacks. Don't you dare mention the weather Maddie!