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Doubtful. You'll prolly just feel nothing but anger and spite for me now, but one can hope. After everything YOU did to me, I'm absolutely terrified of you hating me when it should be the other way around. I really did give you all I had to offer in this world, I just want you to know that. #ughfeelings  #heartache  #heartbroken  #breakup  #whyamilikethis 

I have to start this post off by saying that I am SO grateful to be pregnant. That conceiving has been easy for us. That is about all that has been easy. Pregnancy after loss is EXHAUSTING. You have the general anxiety of "Will this baby die too?". Every ache and twinge and cramp is a mental downhill spiral. Since 16 weeks I have been going for cervical ultrasounds every 2 weeks. I see my OB every 2 weeks. There was a point where we were told he "may or may not have a hole on his heart", so we were sent for a special fetal echocardiogram. (There is not a hole in his heart). I've been on pelvic rest since we found out, exercise restrictions, weight lifting restrictions. I take progesterone suppositories nightly. I've been diagnosed with Gestational Diabetes. And my placenta failed so hard that we can't even control it just with diet. So I'm on insulin injections 4 times a day, with the same amount of blood sugar poke checks daily too. It's a struggle for someone who has dealt with disordered eating the way I have to have to think about everything that goes into their bodies and STILL feel like they are failing their baby. I'm struggling, mentally with it all and that's okay and it's normal and I wish I could say that pregnancy has been magical but mostly I just want to fast forward through the next 7-9 weeks and get this little one out of me and into the world. #pregnancyafterloss  #ughfeelings 

This is probably the best thing that anyone has ever said to me. My daughter wrote this letter and hid it in my dresser for my birthday last week (which I didn't get to read until very recently). You often question your parenting decisions throughout their lives, often learning -with them- as you teach. My main hopes are to encourage, inspire, and drive them to successfully accomplish their dreams because the sky really is the limit . What she doesn't realize is that she makes me a better person, often giving me the drive to do great things for her (& obviously the sibs). I would not be the woman I am today without her. @cornbreadpotato  I love you to the ends of the universe and back. TLDR - my kid is an intelligent and thoughtful human. Our society is gaining a bright light for the world. . . . . #momlife  #feels  #dontcry  #icried  #ughfeelings  #sentimental  #parenthood  #parentingdoneright  #love  #letter 

How I feel about these so called "feelings" trying to invade me #FML  #ughfeelings  #whyme  #thefeels 

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Repost. This Aquarian Full Moon has got me all twisted up inside...retrograde wasn’t nothin compared to this. #aquarius  #fullmoon  #icandothis  #ughfeelings 

A little doodly doo, messing around with style on a simple song. I think a doggo hit something in the background that’s why there is a thump. I couldn’t fit the entire vid into 1 min, oh well. Please enjoy! The song is Feelings are Fatal by mxmtoon #improved  #singing  #indie  #mxmtoon  #ukulele  #easyukulele  #snippet  #song  #chill  #mood  #ughfeelings  #feelings 

Sad boi hours😕 . . . . . #ughfeelings  #lonely  #sadboihours 

starting a new theme || no longer a tate fan account sorry - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - #newtheme  #pink  #pinkaesthetic  #f4f  #l4l  #explorepage  #glitter  #addyrae  #feelingssuck  #ughfeelings  #pinkglitter  #aesthetic  #aestheticaccount  #tiktok  #addyraefan  #addyraeaesthetic 

Sitting by the casement, Staring blank at the skies. It's been raining for an hour, All over my heart. My dreams are finding nests right now, They've got wet wings. Even my pillars are shaking, Guess what follows is a storm. I should find a dependable shade, too But I'm already drenched. Just out here pretending to have the best time of my life, I feel like a mess. All the trees I used to rest beneath, Have real slender trunks. I see each one of them Going down one by one. The down pour could've been my catharsis But I don't wanna let go, you know? How can I shed tears for my loss When I still can't process it? -mK . . . . . #poetry  #poems  #poetsofinstagram  #sadpoetry  #lettinggo  #mess  #blank  #writings  #writersofinstagram  #sad  #hurting  #metaphorical  #poetsandwriters  #readersofinstagram  #feels  #ughfeelings  #broken  #suchamess  #pretending  #fakepeople  #catharsis  #vulnerable  #feelings  #why  #hurts  #ewfeelings  #itshard  #brokenheart  #shortpoems  #sadpoetry 

😁❤...I am fucking gold, you can prefer Silver and it’s okay...❤😁 #imgold  #idfc  #smile  #sexy  #selfie  #fuckthehaters  #ughfeelings  #theoneandonly  #whatyoulookingat 

I have to start this post off by saying that I am SO grateful to be pregnant. That conceiving has been easy for us. That is about all that has been easy. Pregnancy after loss is EXHAUSTING. You have the general anxiety of "Will this baby die too?". Every ache and twinge and cramp is a mental downhill spiral. Since 16 weeks I have been going for cervical ultrasounds every 2 weeks. I see my OB every 2 weeks. There was a point where we were told he "may or may not have a hole on his heart", so we were sent for a special fetal echocardiogram. (There is not a hole in his heart). I've been on pelvic rest since we found out, exercise restrictions, weight lifting restrictions. I take progesterone suppositories nightly. I've been diagnosed with Gestational Diabetes. And my placenta failed so hard that we can't even control it just with diet. So I'm on insulin injections 4 times a day, with the same amount of blood sugar poke checks daily too. It's a struggle for someone who has dealt with disordered eating the way I have to have to think about everything that goes into their bodies and STILL feel like they are failing their baby. I'm struggling, mentally with it all and that's okay and it's normal and I wish I could say that pregnancy has been magical but mostly I just want to fast forward through the next 7-9 weeks and get this little one out of me and into the world. #pregnancyafterloss  #ughfeelings 

Quick intermission from all the #OKX  content: It blows my mind that anyone would take the time to make signs for me. I’m truly grateful for all the people who have ever bought a shirt, asked for a picture, or even just came up to me and said “nice match.” Sometimes I take for granted that people DO care, and what we do DOES matter, even on a small scale. Nice to be reminded of that this weekend at @okxwrestling  and @wcwapro.  #ughfeelings  #gratitude  #wrestling 

Sorry not sorry for being that gross couple. They say the beginning of any relationship is the best part, well I think we hit the fucking jack pot babes 😘 #candw  #ughyouveturnedmeintoasap  #ughfeelings  #freshair  #pumaforthewin  #grosscouple 

😍 I miss you. It's gross. Come hooome 😄 #throwback  #ughfeelings  #datface  #hottie 

Happy Birthday to the only person more awesome than me. And to the only person who is willing to put up with my shenanigans every day. Your strength, spirit, smile, giant heart, and unwavering ability to tackle your fears is an inspiration to me. I love you @hannahmaezie , and here’s the 37 more years of the world being a better place because of your soul. . . . #happybirthday  #epiphany  #wife  #smile  #love  #ughfeelings  #thiswoman 

I know that it will hurt hitting ground but, I don’t think that I’d mind the falling. | #jump  #astrid  #isthereanyonewatching  #eyesbeforeguys  #weeb  #weebette  #bored  #merp  #tuesdayselfie  #tuesdaythoughts  #cool  #ughfeelings  #allthefeels  #thefeelsarereal  #bleh  #beingagirl  #imgirlingrightnow  #heavyeyeroll 

My #mcm  is this one right here. Even when I’m extremely irritated when it’s hot and humid, you still make me smile. #vscocam  #ughfeelings 

In happy news I have to pay $700 to get my car fixed. If anyone needs me I will be under my covers. .. .. .. #ughfeelings  #mentalhealth  #depression  #depressed  #helpmeimpoor  #emo  #bpd  #thissucks  #fucked 

Y’all I feel like this tree. Yesterday was not my best. I felt like a failure. My energy was low and 😕 defeated. I had some of my worst class’s as an instructor . I let myself spiral out and gave others opinions of me the highest value. Did I mention .. I felt like a complete failure . All while trying to teach class and pretend I wasn’t split in half . I’m going to try again today just like this tree. Try to carry on and regrow . I’m not a failure but perhaps I can do better. I can address my weakness and grow from it. I know the “gram” is a glossy place for all the perfect things in life. BUT... I wanted to let you know sometimes we feel like a complete and total failure. Like the only option is to ugly snot cry in the shower . Like you should just pack it in and go home to your safe space ( bed / couch) eat that whole bag ofTrader Joe’s plantain chips ( because you don’t even have real ones anymore) and watch Carnivale all while contemplating your path as a “fitness instructor “ , but I may be a little biased on that last one. Well thanks for listening I’m gonna try and be less of an eyore from Winnie the Pooh. Yup just pulled a character from a kids movie .... Omg I need real adult friends !!!!

Here's to not crying on stage while serenading you husband for your anniversary! #ughfeelings  #13years  #anniversary  #burlesque  #chicagoburlesque  #mamadisco  #glitter  #oohshiny  #performer  #singer  #variety  #host 

RESPOST: @mariahcmemes  When you are minding your own business and you see your ex on the same dating site as you. There is a part of you that still loves the person, but you realize what’s the point? He is not thinking about you and is moving on with his life 💔 #whatif  #movingon  #ughfeelings  #istayinlove  #mariahcarey 

Just wanted to take a moment to share this sweet photo of my guys from yesterday. Marriage is hard. Being a mom is hard. But when you have a partner that’s always supportive of your goals & an amazing papa to our Potato you can’t help but be incredibly grateful for the life you lead because it’s a damn good one. I couldn’t work all week, be a mama & run this little business without this dude. #mcm  on Tuesday. But really every damn day. #ughfeelings  #cohenzone  #sakurabloom  #sakurabloomdad 

Well today's one of those days where you wish you could just turn the time back and try again... 😔 Hopefully something positive will happen soon. #alternativegirl  #purplehair  #dark  #ughfeelings  #helpimfeeling  #glassesgirl  #heartbroken  #silly  #lookatthelittlebunny  #rabbit  #hiding  #netherlanddwarf 

This is probably the best thing that anyone has ever said to me. My daughter wrote this letter and hid it in my dresser for my birthday last week (which I didn't get to read until very recently). You often question your parenting decisions throughout their lives, often learning -with them- as you teach. My main hopes are to encourage, inspire, and drive them to successfully accomplish their dreams because the sky really is the limit . What she doesn't realize is that she makes me a better person, often giving me the drive to do great things for her (& obviously the sibs). I would not be the woman I am today without her. @cornbreadpotato  I love you to the ends of the universe and back. TLDR - my kid is an intelligent and thoughtful human. Our society is gaining a bright light for the world. . . . . #momlife  #feels  #dontcry  #icried  #ughfeelings  #sentimental  #parenthood  #parentingdoneright  #love  #letter 

Current feels situation #feels  #thefeels  #ughfeelings 

To escape and sit quietly on the beach - that's my idea of paradise. . . . I like anywhere with a beach. A beach and warm weather is all I really need. . . . Loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted is the most terrible poverty ~ Mother Teresa #quotes  #beachquotes  #beach  #motherteresaquote  #ughfeelings  #selfie  #snapchatfilter  #bored  #takemetothebeach  #travelwithme  #photography  #blindspot  #18daystogo  #siriuslake  #depressionquote 

Yes!! Strength comes in allowing yourself to feel even though it sucks! #ughfeelings  #heavyheart  #innerstrength 

Gettin’ real with the bestie #sundayfunday  #ughfeelings  #🍷

🥀Can’t break what’s already broken🥀 #selfie  #filter  #edit  #ughfeelings 

When you’re emotional and need to express it but you’re also super awkward and hate yourself for being feelingy.#ick #ughfeelings #awkward #romance 

Its our last night with Bonus Boy! Almost 2 years being a direct part of this family. Its so hard to believe that tomorrow is the start of his adoption adventure!!! I have cried so many times today it's crazy. I'm so happy that he is finally getting his amazing forever family, who will love him and support him every single day of his life. He has come so far from when he first entered foster care but he is leaving care a smart, funny, caring, loving, spunky little boy! I'm so proud of him and the best part is that he will always be in our lives and I will always be his Aunt Ju😍 #adopt  #adoption  #fostercare  #lovehimlikehesmyown  #sad  #happy  #ughfeelings 

Some days I need pep talks. Today’s one of those days. #ughfeelings  #needpatience  #needtolift  #needprayer  #needahug  #needapuppy  #needmoney  #needvacation  #needtacos 

Planning a wedding makes you realize you have no friends... Oh the joys that come when you have to explain to a person why you have no friends, or few friends, and why it is so hard for you to socialize. I have always found it hard to be around people. I find that I don’t understand social cues and I can ramble on too much. I feel like I get too attached to people and it scares them away, so I instead will avoid starting conversations and then get upset that I’m so lonely. It wasn’t always this way. There have been short periods of my life where I have made lots of friends, yet none of these friendships lasted. It’s left me insecure. Despite all the countless friends I have had in my life, only a few remain in contact and cares for me and the other is my husband. Can we count my kids, too? Now it’s stressful for me because I want to talk to people other than my husband, have days out with friends, and I also feel bad for relying on my few friends, who are amazing but busy, and have their own best friends, significant others, and families, so I tend to keep a distance as I don’t want to be a bother. People tell me it’s easy to start a conversation, but it makes me feel so sick. If someone tries to talk to me I get so caught off guard that I say something so wrong, or blow them off, that it gives them a bad impression. I tend to blame myself for my loneliness. I have a high expectation of what a friend should be — that they will put in as much effort as I do and will not force me to have to make all plans and conversations. Everyone has that one friend they’d choose over anyone... to talk to, to hang out with, it doesn’t matter, they’re always the first choice. I get an empty feeling in my chest when I realize I’m not that friend to anyone. It makes me feel so immature to let it bother me because I feel like there seriously has to be a problem with me, like I am a built-in person repeller. Why is it so hard for me to make and maintain friendships? Am I not kind, am I really strange? #ughfeelings  #feelings  #rant  #thoughts  💕

This year so far...been blessed to spend time in this beautiful place. Maybe the silver lining of the boat not running is having to look to other places to find whatever it is that being on the ocean in our boat gives me. It isn’t the same yet it helps and I’m learning a lot. Shot a muzzleloader for the first time Saturday and I’m not afraid to say I’m not feeling it. I prefer the bow or my rifle but I’m not giving up on it just yet. There’s another chance in July and I plan to be better prepared with it. Meanwhile the ocean is calling me and I wasn’t expecting it to be so hard on my heart not fishing this year. If I seem a little off or distant that’s why. This too shall pass and with that I’m starting a new painting today to pour those feelings into. #ughfeelings  #goathunting  #muzzleloader  #kokee  #kauai  #trynewthings 

I miss my boyfriend wahh....😭.... It's only been one week and still got 3 more to go..... Yeah I know I'm being a little b**** hahaha I fully accept it. 😁 Ahhaha #relationships  #goodtimes  #crybaby  #brat  #girlfriend  #swolemate  #prettylame  #feelings  #ughfeelings  #emotions  #weak  #love  #bigbaby  #dumbfeelings  hahahaahaaa #lakeside  #lakearrowhead  #familytime  #smile  #happy  #myboo  #workups  #newbie 

I binged all of Devilman Crybaby last night and this about sums up how I was feeling by the end. Fuck happy endings! #devilmancrybaby  #devilman  #otaku  #gaynerd  #gaygeek  #imnotcryingyourecrying  #ughfeelings 

I had an weird incident happen several weeks ago. My mother got mad at me. Usually I have two responses to anger that's directed at me rage or devastation. Rarely an I able to let it roll off without it effecting me. Last night my sister was upset, not with me, but I was having trouble understanding her the context of our conversation. I inadvertently mad her feel worst. That's all it took for me to lose my shit, her to be of voice. I didn't blow up in a rage. I excussed myself and hid outside, next to my wrecked Ford F-150. I cried, I wailed, shaved my first in my mouth and banged my head on the truck, I hide again in the bush from her, bc I wasn't ready to face her. Her found me, hugged me, by the end of the night we were cool. Today I woke up late, when to a house I agreed to clean, came home, showered, ate lunch, and went shopping and came home, cleaned my room, and did laundry. At least that's what physically happened. In my mind though, I've been wondering why I broke down that way? Why I kept saying, "I want die". Today I know what my heart meant, "I want this awful sick overeating part of myself to die" this part that blows up, the part that crumbles. Tonight in my room, I cried again. I hate mental illnesses, for slowly trying to kill my sister. It's like losing my uncle to cancer again, only difference is the feeling that I can slow the "cancer" down with the right words. The right support, like I have any say on keeping my loved ones alive. I hate how my anxiety makes me feel like every is trying to still my loved ones. I don't know if this is only anxiety, hormones, or what. But I don't know this day has been very hard. And I feel like everything I do makes it worse. Oh and I found a dead lizzard in my bedroom tonight - I'm a former lizzard momma. 😢 I hope this passes before my florida vacation.🏖 #mentalhealth  #anxiety  #IED ? #Darkroom  #depression ? #BED  #losingfamily  #badday  #notalone  #sisterlove  #openingup  #talkingaboutit  #endthementalhealthstigma  #endthestigma  #ughfeelings  #😟

I am nominating my Sister in law @piggy.pi  for her chance to be pampered with the #OMAGSHINE  opportunity. She shines daily but I want her to know just how much her shine affects myself and the people around her.She is pure love.Always there when I need her. She is beautiful in every sense of the word. I am truly blessed. #okimdone #somuchgushing #butsheisamazing #ughfeelings 

Hey!! Listen to this. I’m really appreciating Chrissie Hynde’s songwriting these days. * * * #pretenders  #thepretenders  #chrissiehynde  #perfectalbum  #ughfeelings  #gross 

Here I go ..getting deep again🤢😅🙈 #ILoveIt  #StolenQuotes  #Vibes  #WhoAmI  #UghFeelings  #WhatsLoveGotToDoWithIt 

when your therapist and @nayyirah.waheed  tell you the same thing on the same day, you know the universe is saying, Will you please just get on this already. ✨💗💔💗✨#heartstillbroken  #ughfeelings  #mercuryretrograde  #unfinishedbusiness  #instagay  #trans  #transgender #ftm  #transguy  #gaytransguy  #witch  #witchesofinstagram 

That's a OC from my best friend. He's perfection. But she keeps hurting him and his family so I'm doing my best to get my revenge. #fanart  #myart  #art  #traditionalart  #sketchy  #artist  #OC  #sad  #myfeels  #feeling  #dom  #rain  #queenofdaydream  #whatididforlove  #fanfic  #revenge  #ughfeelings  #drama  #pencil  #mechanicpencil  #mechanicalpencil  #sketch  #wip 

a little over a year ago, you asked me to be your wife. I was thrilled. scared. blindsided to say the least... You made me not afraid to be in love, and to have & give love, fully. te amo simpre, mi Rey. #loyallyloyala  #savethedate  #9.22.18 #love  #ughfeelings 

Therapy today got me like #ughfeelings  #spoonie  #therapy  #mentalhealth 

A month later and lost 2.4 lbs of body fat 😄 Still need to gain 3.3 lbs of lean muscle 💪🏼 Unfortunately this stomach bug got me yesterday 😩 #rxtime  #restdays  #ughfeelings  #takingiteasy  #futuregoals 

New blog post has me feelin’ great. Check it out! 😎 https://jnorkey.weebly.com #bloggerlife  #relationships  #ughfeelings 

Guthrie Uncovered #ughfeelings 

Today was day 5 of #mantras4thenewyear  and the pose is bow pose. I really struggled today with just taking my photo and putting it up. I was in an unenthusiastic mood, and that definitely affected my photo. When I was in school, a professor always told us to “Love more, fear less. Float more, steer less.” Which is a book by John Halcyon Styn. This quote has always stuck with me and I’ve tried to remember it in my daily life. I feel like it fits today’s mantra of love. I’m not a person who likes to open up or over share, and the topic of love really makes me hesitant. I’ve sat here for a while not knowing what to write. So I will end my post with Love is all around you if you raise your head to look ( that was in my horoscope today-how perfect) Have a lovely week everyone. • I am love ❤️ • Hosts: @meliniseri  @yogi_goddess  @alissayoga  @coffeeandrainbows  Sponsor: @aloyoga  #mantras4thenewyear  #yogachallenge  #day5  #yoga  #yogainspiration  #yogajourney  #aloyoga  #aloyogachallenge  #begoddess  #bowpose  #iamlove  #newyearmantras  #stretchitout  #sundayvibes  #floatmoresteerless  #lovemorefearless  #begrateful  #progressnotperfection  #nogoodatlove  #ughfeelings  #cantijustbearobot 

The Little Things? The Little Moments? They are'nt little... ❤️∞ 💔 #cantgetenoughofthis  #heavyhearts  #ughfeelings  #stopthatshit  #holyhell  #whyyouno  .. ?!

Can't believe I'm spending Christmas without the other half of me, the good half, the half that humours me when I take photos with stupid filters, kisses my booty daily, and who pushes me to be better, stronger and love harder. Merry Christmas Eve hotness, see you on the flip side 🎄🤓🎉🎅🏽🎁🌟❤️🥂💗 #ughfeelings  #pda  #suppapi  #stupidfilter  #merrychristmasyo  #notasgoodasberlin  #whatsinthebox  #ingday  💗🎄