CONTEMPLATING IMPERMANENCE ... I've been quiet for a while and here is why:
As you may have noticed, I've been traveling like crazy these past 11 months and have seen so many great sights, traveled to many awesome new places, met countless beautiful people and have gotten quite used to living out of my suitcase.
And then came the point where I returned to the place I have lived for over 16 years to purge my very last, beloved belongings. It had become apparent that living in the US again is unlikely at this point. It's been quite a process, to say the least - and continues to be for another 11 days. And I am choosing for it to be easeful and with a lot of love & grace. And so it is!
The picture you see, an over 300 pound stone Buddha, was one of these remaining pieces that had my heart. And one that I knew would need to go! With the uncertainty of a new place to land or even a vague timeline when I would get the itch to settle down again, I made the radical decision to downsize to what will fit into a few suitcases. NO MORE!
It may sound dramatic, but what it really came down to were these questions: WHAT DO I REALLY NEED? WHY AM I ATTACHED TO CERTAIN THINGS? WHAT DO THEY REPRESENT TO ME? WHAT WILL HAPPEN WHEN I NO LONGER OWN ANY OF IT?
It was a very raw and honest dialogue and what I realized was that many of the things that I could not part from when I left my life as I knew it last June, no longer held any charge and I even questioned why they even made it into the remaining boxes in the first place.
What I also realized is that I am NOT my belongings and stripping away all of these material things allow me to just be me, to become NO ONE. Not 'no one' as in not of importance, a nobody or looser. Quite the contrary. I am fully stepping into a new, upgraded version of myself and I am on a journey where I AM CHOOSING AND GIVING MYSELF PERMISSION TO LIVE UNAPOLOGETICALLY THE LIVE OF MY DREAMS, to fully trust in the unfolding of it all, to live in the present moment without worrying too much about stuff that no longer defines my life. ... continued in comments